Friday, October 9, 2020

31 Days of Halloween: Week 1 Recap

We've reached the end of the first week of the 31 Days of Halloween experiment my wife and I are doing, designed to broaden her horror movie experiences and provide me entertainment for a month, and spoken about at length here. I thought it would make sense to check in every week and let whoever might be interested know how it's going, what we liked and didn't like, and so forth.

We kicked the marathon off on Day One with one of my favorite horror movies Trick 'r Treat, one of my favorite horror movies and one that my wife likes as well. Despite the fact that we've both seen it before, I wanted to start things off on a good note with something we'd both enjoy before getting into the unsorted mixed bag of nuts the rest of the month will be.

For Day Two we watched The Prophecy, one of my favorite Christopher Walken movies. It's been quite a while since I've seen this and... it hasn't aged well. Walken is still amazing in it as a crazy, evil angel, and Viggo Mortensen pops up with a very chilling performance as Lucifer, but the movie itself is more than a little ridiculous and poorly done otherwise. My wife thought this was just okay; it was a little too biblical and dated for her, and not really a horror movie at all in her opinion.

We watched The Strangers on Day Three. This flick made the list because we watched the sequel, The Strangers: Prey at Night, a few weeks ago and it was really, really bad; I had remembered watching this one in theaters and it was way better, so I thought my wife should give it a try. My wife enjoyed this one and found it pretty creepy, especially how it's loosely based on true events.

Day Four brought us to our first TV show binge of the marathon, Hulu's new show Monsterland, which I reviewed earlier this week here. Much like in my review, my wife only liked a few episodes, specifically the first, third, and eighth. She also agreed that there needed to be more monsters actually involved.

There's a movie from the mid-eighties on Amazon Prime called The Stuff, which is what we watched on Day Five. It was recommended to us by two friends of mine on Twitter, and I have to tell you I have no idea why. This movie was just laughably bad. Low-budget, horribly acted, and just utterly ridiculous. Although, Garret Morris was in it playing Chocolate Chip Charlie, who's hands were lethal weapons, so it wasn't a total loss. I asked my wife what she thought about this and she just groaned at me.

We stayed on Amazon Prime for Day Six, watching a new movie called The Lie, which is the first in Prime's new "Welcome to the Blumhouse" series of movies all produced by, duh, Blumhouse. I wasn't too impressed by this movie throughout most of its running time, finding it kind of dull and overwrought, but there's a twist on the end that really changed things up for me a bit. We both agreed that the acting was pretty good, but the plot was pretty flawed, but disagreed about the twist; she liked it a lot less than I did.

For Day Seven we switched back to Hulu for another new movie, Books of Blood, based on the old John Carpenter series. The movie is set up as a three-chapter anthology, and the first chapter is both the longest and by far the strongest. Honestly, the movie itself would have been much better if that chapter had been fleshed out and turned into the entire movie, but the other two chapters have a narrative purpose as framing devices so I understand why they did what they did. It makes even more sense when you learn this project was initially developed as a TV series and not a movie. My wife liked the anthology aspect, especially how the stories were all connected, but thought the other two stories needed more time. She also agreed the first story should have been its own thing, because there's a lot to unpack in that one.

Finally, for Day Eight last night we watched the 2004 version of Dawn of the Dead, one of my favorite zombie movies and also one of the only Zack Snyder movies I enjoy (please don't come at me, Snyderbros, my dislike of his movies takes nothing away from your enjoyment whatsoever and I'm not here to bash anything). My wife really liked this one, especially the characterization, some of the techniques used to tell the story, and the zombie baby idea. She also complained there was too much violence... but hey, it's zombies.

It's Friday, and this should be one of the better weekends of the marathon. We're watching Friday the 13th tonight, followed by Friday the 13th Part 2 tomorrow, and then The Haunting of Bly Manor on Sunday, which is really the centerpiece of the whole affair. The Haunting of Hill House was just amazing, so I'm hoping for a good time on Sunday!

Wednesday, October 7, 2020

Monsterland: Too Much Man, Too Little Monster

Anthologies are tricky things. I say this all the time about short story collections, and it's no less true when it comes to an anthology TV series. You really never know what you're going to get from episode to episode. Not every episode will connect with every viewer. Different tones between episodes can be jarring. Different writers and different directors all have different styles. That's especially true about the topic of today's blog, the new Hulu "horror" anthology Monsterland, which has no less than eight different directors (one per episode) and four different writers.

Monsterland is itself based on a short story anthology, written by Nathan Ballingrud. Each story takes place in a different city in the United States, and while I don't know about the book, the show is a mixed bag for sure. Some of the episodes are entertaining and some are decidedly less so. Across the board though, the show's biggest drawback is that it's very light on the actual monsters and very heavy-handed about the idea that people are the monsters. And I mean VERY heavy-handed. It gets a bit oppressive in some episodes to the point that I really, really wished there were less people and more monsters.

Personally, I enjoyed half of the episodes, all four of which were the ones written by Mary Laws, who also created the show for television. Her episodes felt like they stuck the greatest balance between man and monster. I don't know if I recommend the show as a whole, honestly, but I do recommend checking her episodes out; she wrote the first, third, sixth, and eighth, and the first and eighth in particular are really good, especially in how they bookend each other.

Overall, Monsterland is just like your typical anthology: a few hits, a few misses, and a few standouts. You may want to give the show a try, tis the season for monsters and all, but don't expect to be scared.

Wednesday, September 30, 2020

"Unpromoteable": Why I Left the Best Job I've Ever Had

So here's a post that may piss some people off, but its really a story that needs to be told, and I'll tell you why at the end. It's the story of why I left the best job I ever had after four pretty great years, and did so without a safety net.

But to get to the end, I should backtrack a little. Halfway through the summer of 2017, after I had been working there for a little over two years and had already been promoted and received a few raises, I started having a problem commuting. I would get stomach pains every time I got on the bus in the morning, pains that would lead to panic attacks. It got so bad I started getting off of the bus not long after I got on it and would have to take an Uber to work, at an average of forty-five bucks a pop. We first thought it was stress-related; my supervisor was on leave so I was shouldering a lot at work, had just applied for another promotion and had no idea if it would work out, and, oh, yeah, I was getting married in a month. So no shortage of stress, right? But it persisted, even after the wedding, after my supervisor came back, after I didn't get that promotion (wouldn't be the last time I didn't get that promotion, but more on that later). I started seeing doctors to figure out what was wrong and got jerked around quite a bit; first I was just overweight, then it was gall stones, then I needed to get my gall bladder removed (I was but that wasn't the point, the stones are there but harmless, and I still have my gall bladder three years later).

While I was either leaving doctors flabbergasted or exposing the inadequacies, I was never quite sure, I moved to taking either Uber or Lyft to work everyday, whichever was cheaper on that particular day. So it's safe to say I was spending $200 a week on transit just in the mornings. Keep that in mind as the story unfolds.

Finally, I got in to see a truly awesome gastroenterologist, who immediately diagnosed my stomach pains as acid reflux, put me on a pill that helped with that, and then further figured out through some testing I have "mixed IBS," which is a version of Irritable Bowel Syndrome that expresses itself sometimes as constipation and other times as diarrhea.

It's as fun as it sounds, let me tell you.

We also figured out stress is a very heavy trigger for me, and that's why I was always experiencing symptoms in the morning. Not knowing how long the bus would take, if it would break down, if it would get stuck in the tunnel... even taking Ubers to work, not knowing how bad traffic would be, would we get stuck on the bridge, would I be late, etc. It was all just very bad. The doctor also helped me get social accomodations at work for it to be okay for me to be up to see hour late because of my condition, and for the first year that was fine. I worked hard. I got passed up for that same promotion two more times in the span of a month and got transferred to a new team for what I was told was the express purpose of preparing me to be the next one promoted. So I learned the new team, worked hard, forced myself to sit in an Uber cramped up with pain day after day, because I loved whereI worked.

Let me say that again. I loved where I worked. Did I complain about it? Sure. It's work, that's what people do. But I knew it was the best job I ever had. I loved the friends I had made there. It was the kind of work I enjoyed.

So I worked hard for another year, until the next chance for a promotion came up. In that time, some management changes happened, both in my department and in HR, and they started giving me problems about my accomodations. I don't know if they thought I should just magically be better, if they didn't understand what a chronic condition was, but they didn't want to approve it for another year. The doctor had to recertify, and no matter what he wrote on the form, they challenged it. I had to go back three times. They started counting the minutes I missed, instead of allowing the hour a day. All this was making my condition worse, because again, stress. And through all this, I worked hard. I hit goals. My team succeeded constantly. And when that next promotion chance came up, I still didn't get it. And that's when someone in management finally told me the truth.

Because of my chronic health condition, they considered me "unpromoteable."

That's right, I was told no matter how hard I worked or how good I was, I'd never be promoted because I had a health issue. So I thought it over for a few days, talked it over with my wife; talked about how offer 40% of my paycheck was going to transportation, how my days were twelve hours long, how I was always taking short lunch break to make up for the time I missed in the morning, and how all of it was for a job I just found out after four years of hard work didn't have any interest in giving me a future because of something completely out of my control.

So after thinking it over and talking it over, I gave my notice. Did I have a job waiting? No. Partly because I couldn't figure out how to job hunt in New Jersey while working in Manhattan because clearly committing wasn't an option anymore, but mostly because I couldn't stomach working there any longer than I had to.

That's why I left the best job I ever had. Do I regret it? I regret it had to happen, because at one point a future there is all I wanted; I sure as hell regret not still having the amazing health care they provided now that diabetes has me 15K in the hole and stuck in a miserable, remote- only job hunt, I regret the amount of shit my wife and I have both gotten about the decision and the situation it led to from people with a shocking dearth of empathy, but I don't regret my decision once I realized that future I hoped for there was forever going to be denied me.

I just wish I could find the next "best job I ever had" somewhere that will appreciate me, sooner rather than later.

Sunday, September 27, 2020

31 Days of Halloween

 

I've seen a lot of things floating around the interwebz lately about how Halloween is cancelled because of the pandemic, just like everything else has been in the last few months. Well, we here at SSTAS (the "we" being me, my wife, and our two cats, who are of course very invested in my success here, as we all know cats are never disinterested, aloof little bastards) have very strong feelings about Halloween in general, and even stronger feelings about the cancellation thereof:

Fuck. That.

We're going to go in the exact opposite direction of cancelling Halloween and do Halloween every day with 31 Days of Halloween! Thirty-one days of horror-themed programming, a movie a day, with some TV shows thrown in, to make sure Halloween gets its due this year. And I'm not talking about how some cable channels do it, where they show the same seven movies again and again all month long. No, we're doing thirty-one different programs. Don't believe me? See for yourself!


As you can see, there's a nice mix of everything in there, new movies premiering on various streaming services this month, a bunch of classics, a ridiculous comedy or two, a few binge-worthy new shows (highlighted in blue) and what are probably a few controversial choices too... I'm looking at you, Rob Zombie's Halloween movies!

Aside from luxuriating in horror to celebrate the glory of Halloween, another purpose of this is to broaden my wife's horizons when it comes to horror movies; she never really watched any growing up and hasn't seen really any of Freddy, Jason, Leatherface, and all their friends. I've done a good job in the almost seven years we've been together exposing her to more and more, but since she still tries to only let us watch horror flicks in the daytime with the curtains open wide, it's time to really do a deep dive with her. That's why we're starting off light and easy with Trick r' Treat, taking a break in the middle for what I'm sure will be the absolutely ridiculous Hubie Halloween, and then finishing up on Halloween itself with the Exorcist, a movie even I've been too afraid to watch for a long time. I'll probably write reviews up for the new shows and maybe the new movies and do weekly updates about how it's going, what my wife did or didn't like, how much sleep we're losing, things like that.

Of course, this isn't the extent of what we're watching. There's also Halloween Wars and Outrageous Pumpkins on the Food Channel, Eli Roth's History of Horror season 2 on AMC, and of course whatever various Walking Dead shows make it on the air this month, it's getting hard to keep track. And on Halloween after we watch the Exorcist bright and early (because even I won't watch that shit in the dark at night), we'll fill the rest of the day with various things like It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown and other Halloween themed TV episodes and stuff. And I'm sure we'll get to the alternates I have listed at the bottom of the calendar too. 

So that's our 31 Days of Halloween plan. Got any thoughts on the movies we'll be watching? Or even better, got anything you know YOU'LL be watching this Halloween? Let's talk about it!

P.S. It's been pointed out that the calendar pic above might not be the easiest to read on some devices, so just to make things easier, here's the planned movies and shows in list form:

Trick 'r Treat

The Prophecy

The Strangers

Monsterland

Stuff

The Lie (Welcome to the Blumhouse)

Books of Blood

Dawn of the Dead (2004)

Friday the 13th

Friday the 13th Part 2

Haunting of Bly Major

The Final Girls

Black Box (Welcome to the Blumhouse)

1408

Hubie Happen

Love and Monsters

Leprechaun

Helstrom

Nightmare on Elm Street

Evil Eye (Welcome to the Blumhouse)

Rebecca

Malevolent

Fright Night (2011)

The Amityville Horror (2005)

Texas Chainsaw Massacre (2003)

Emelie

Nocturne (Welcome to the Blumhouse)

Halloween (2007)

Halloween 2 (2009)

His House

The Exorcist

Friday, September 25, 2020

I Got the Diabeetus.

So, it's been awhile, right? But boy have I got a story to tell. I know, who doesn't this year, right? Mine starts around Valentine's Day, when I started feeling kind of funky. I was constantly tired. My muscles ached. I'd get numbness in my hands and feet. I was always thirsty and peeing constantly.  I would get ravishingly hungry, but then be tired of eating after two or three bites. I couldn't even make my way through a PB&J. This went on throughout the month of February, a month in which I lost 30lbs. My wife would come home from work to find me in the dark, under a blanket on the couch, fast asleep almost every night. We knew there was something wrong with me, but, without insurance, we hoped we could just go the home remedy route for whatever it was.

So we treated the symptoms. Gatorades for the constant thirst and frequent urination. Protein shakes to combat the hunger but inability to eat, and also the way too rapid weight loss. Of course, this was a mistake, as we'd come to find out, given the sugar and carb content of these things, but we'll get there.

Things started getting really bad as March started. The first Friday in March, March 6th, my heterosexual lifemate was having a karaoke party for his 40th birthday. I was excited, but also nervous as hell given how I was feeling. I got up to shower and get myself ready for the party, and could barely make it through the shower. I felt like I couldn't breathe. My back hurt. I had to finally give in; I called my wife and told her she needed to come home, I needed to go to the ER.

I went to the ER, got checked in, got all kinds of tests, the whole thing, and by later that night I was out of the ER... and into the ICU, where the nurses told me I had one of the worst cases of diabetic ketoacidosis, or DKA, that they had ever seen. They were surprised I hadn't slipped into a diabetic coma. My blood sugar on admittance was 700, and I had an A1C of over 12. So clearly I was diabetic, and the home remedies we tried didn't help any. I spent two days in the ICU, getting my blood sugar taken hourly, getting various insulin doses hourly, going through IV after IV of fluids for extreme dehydration, getting a phosphorous drip. It was hell. I spent the nights alone, face to face with my mortality for the first time. Which sounds extreme, I know, but that's how sick I was. It was close.

So after two days in the ICU, I was moved to the general hospital floor for another two days of insulin and multiple meetings with a diabetic coordinator and a nutritionist. By the third day, I was feeling immensely better. I had an appetite. I was no longer peeing every two hours. I wasn't exhausted. I finally went home Tuesday afternoon with my blood sugar around 200 and a list of medications I could barely keep track of... two different insulins, a diabetes pill, a cholesterol pill... and an overwhelming schedule of when to take them. I had also gained back 14lbs while in the hospital. The food there clearly wasn't that bad.

Now, the adjustment began. New diet. New medication regiment. I was taking 35 units of a daily insulin once a day, and 12 units of a pre-meal insulin three times a day and possibly a fourth time before bedtime if needed. I'm not going to lie and say it was easy; there was tears, hunger, depression, guilt. Even though they said it wasn't, it felt like a death sentence. The first month was hell. 

But it got better. I got used to the new diet, and begin to figure out what I could and couldn't eat without spiking my blood sugar. I even figured out how to still have dessert. And my body recovered. My insulin doses started lessening. After just two weeks the pre-meal insulin went from 12 units to 6 units, and after two months got changed to just as needed, and I've never needed it. The daily insulin went from 35 units to 30 units, to 20 units, to 10 units, to just last week being taken off of it completely. Through it all, my blood sugar has been fine. It rose a little, but still well within normal, safe limits. And what's really made all this possible has been the weight loss. Around my birthday in January, I was 250lbs. Not six weeks later when I went into the ER, I had dropped to 220lbs. When I came out of the hospital, I was back up to 234lbs. Today? I'm at 205lbs, a weight I haven't seen in eight years, at least. Now don't get me wrong, I still have bad days; because of just how screwed up I was, I have side effects I'll never fully be rid of. But overall, I feel healthier than I have in a long, long time.

Of course, things aren't all great. I left the hospital with a flock of bills that totaled over $85K. Since I'm a self-payer, the hospital dialed a lot of that back, but I still have almost $15K in debt to pay off from this, and that's not counting the frequent clinic follow-ups and medications. And this all happened a week before the world went to hell and took the job market with it. Combine that with being in a high-risk group for Covid no matter how well I'm doing, and it's made finding a decent job impossible because I'm limited to remote work only, which has not been easy to find. Things are tight. They're good, but they're tight. That's why you might see if you look to the right of the page a new little widget that says "Support me on ko-fi," because I could use some support. That's all I'll say about that.

I'm hoping to make this a fresh start, a return to blogging. I've got a few fun ideas for posts coming up, a few serious ones as well. And probably some health-related ones as time goes on as well. Hopefully you'll join me for the ride.

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

2019 Movies!

So here's a post I used to do every year, traditionally at the start of the year but whatever, March is fine, where I list the ten movies I'm most excited about for the coming year. Obviously its missing January and February, but I checked, we didn't really miss much so far. Trust me. And Captain Marvel is off the list because it literally comes out tomorrow. Oh, and the list isn't in, like order of excitement or whatever, it's in release date order. So, without further jibberjab, here's the list!

Us - The "new nightmare from the mind of Jordan Peele" has already infected my brain. Seriously. I've had two nightmares inspired by this movie already and I haven't even seen it yet! I blame it on the imagery in the trailer and more so the super-effective editing job they did on "I Got Five on It" to turn it into a haunting nightmare siren. This hopefully horrifying flick frops in just two weeks, March 22nd. 

Avengers: Endgame - Big ol barrel of duh. April 26th.

Brightburn - Basically a superhero horror movie that asks the question, "What if Superman was an evil kid?" Produced by James Gunn, written by two of his brothers, and directed by David Yarovesky who's... directed some video games, or something. It looks fun, though. May 24th.

Godzilla: King of the Monsters - Godzilla vs. Mothra vs. Rodan vs. King Ghidorah in a sequel to the 2014 Godzilla starring Quicksilver and the Scarlet Witch, and also a prequel to the upcoming Godzilla Vs. Kong. So does that make this Godzilla's Empire Strikes Back? I guess we'll find out on May 31st. Side note: It's directed by Michael Dougherty, who directed one of my favorite movies of all time, Trick'R'Treat, as well as the underrated Christmas horror movie Krampus. Should be a blast.

Yesterday - Going by the trailer alone, where a dude hits his head or something and wakes up in a world where the Beatles never existed but he remembers all their songs and becomes famous for "writing" them, this is right up my Beatles-loving alley. It co-stars my girl Lily James, features Ed Sheeran, and is directed by Danny Friggin' Boyle, and comes out June 28th.

Spider-Man: Far From Home - Yeah, this July 5th (who are we kidding, July 3rd) sequel is another huge steaming pile of duh.

Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark - Guillermo Del Toro, who loves monsters more than I love peanut butter cups, is adapting that book series that terrified every child that read it. Of course this is on my list. August 9th.

It: Chapter 2 - Yeah, like I'm going to miss this? Chapter One was fantastic, and this one has put together one hell of a cast. We'll see how the story ends on Sept. 6th, although personally I'd love if they held this one out until Halloween. Always nice to have a good scary movie to go see in October.

The Art of Racing in the Rain - When Marisa and I first started dating, we diced to each give te other a book to read, a book we really loved and that we thought would show the other a lot about our personalities. I gave Marisa "N0S4A2," a book by Stephen King's son Joe Hill, one of th emodern masters of horror who has fast become one of my favorite writers (Editor's note: "N0S4A2" is premiering as a TV series later this year on AMC. I'm not saying you should watch, but...). Marisa gave me Gareth Stein's "The Art of Racing in the Rain," a book which is told through the point of view of loyal wonderful pup Enzo as his owner... I hate that word in this context, but it ain't like master is much better... struggles with a lot of heartbreak in his personal life. I can't lie, I sobbed my way through most of the book, and will probably do so through most of the movie, which stars Milo Ventmiglia, who' sbeen making me sob for three years now in This is Us, Amanda Seyfried, and, in a surprising choice, Kevin Costner as the voice of Enzo, the goodest of good pups. I can't wait. Sept. 27th.

Star Wars: Episode IX - Lastly, the biggest, most heaping heap of duh possible. I'm on the side of SW fans who have enjoyed what Disney has done with the franchise since taking over, especially the directions it's taking the main series in. Sure, I'd love to have seen more of Luke being a badass Jedi Master like he is in the EU books, but, we live in a world where Mark Hamill is old, so there we are. Star Wars is, pretty clearly, one of the bigger loves of my life, and I'm all set for what is, by all accounts, the end of the Skywalker Saga, but not the end of that galaxy far, far away...

So there you have my list. There are a few I'm looking forward to that couldn't crack the top ten, Pet Sematary, for example, but this is pretty much it. Anybody as excited for any of these as I am, or think I left something off? Let me know!

Friday, March 1, 2019

Fiction Friday: Birthed in Blood

So, despite still musing on exactly what kind of writer/blogger I want to be, I decided, for this week at least, to bring back my Fiction Friday tradition. For those new to my little blog, or those who need a refresher because it's been a longass time, Fiction Friday is, well, just that: me posting some fiction I've written, and doing it on a Friday. The posting, not the writing, I mean. Although I suppose the two aren't mutually exclusive...

Anyway, here's the beginning of a story I started working on for NaNoWriMo back in 2015. It's my version of an Arthurian legend story, a bit darker, perhaps, then what we usually get, and sure as hell better than that awful Guy Ritchie movie. I have a whole chart listing all the knights I planned on using for my version of the Knights of the Round Table, how they interact with each other, who hates who, yadda yadda, as well as another section listing family members and villains. I went deep into research mode for this one, folks. So here's the beginnings of what I started writing as the intro to the first book of a potentially four book series. I may be an underachiever, but you can't say I'm an unambitious overachiever, right? It's a bit on the lengthy side, by the way, so just be warned...

Prologue


“Gods-be-damned wizard,” the knight growled furiously as he yanked his sword from where it was buried hilt deep into the fallen foe before him. “If he could ever just once forego the riddles and actually tell me plainly what was about to happen…”
                But then he wouldn’t be a wizard, would he, the knight finished silently with a sigh. He looked at the carnage strewn around him across the battlefield: the mass of bodies, both wounded and dying, sprawled across the grassy earth; the men struggling and staggering, his own knights and the forces of the enemy; the grass and mud run red with blood, the same color that dripped now off his own blade, and sighed again. Reaching around his back with his free hand, the knight grabbed a trailing shred of his tattered cape and pulled it around, using it to wipe his blade as best he could before sliding it into the sheath on his right hip. The crimson of the cape would hide the stain.
                Just how much blood is that cape hiding by now, he wondered to himself? How many people had he killed now, be it through his decisions, his orders, or by him personally, their souls dispatched to the gods by his own hand and his famous or, perhaps, infamous blade? The question gnawed at him, but worse than the fate of those villains he had ordered killed or had killed himself was the fate of all the people who had died for him; because they were protecting him, because they believed in him, because he had ordered them.
                If heavy was the head that wore the crown, it was because it was weighed down by death.
                Arthur Pendragon’s crown was heavy indeed.
                This most recent battle, just one more in a series of bloody affairs in the current ongoing war, weighed on him heavily indeed. Although as he looked around the field it seemed the day was his, he didn’t know how many of his knights, his beloved brothers, had fallen, how many he had left. Too few, he knew, especially given his certainty that the bastard behind it all had slipped away again, meaning another costly battle would soon follow. And rich as she may be, Camelot could ill afford to pay many more costs like this one. If only the wizard had given him more information than a place and time… number of soldiers, support personnel, any logistical information at all. But, as he’d heard time and time again by now, that wasn’t how magic worked.
                “Gods-be-damned wizard,” he swore again, but with less heat and more fatigue this time, “and let them be-damn the magic too while they’re at it.”
                The clash of steel against steel rang out some distance to his left and Arthur’s head whipped around, his left hand instinctively going to the hilt of his sword. Roughly a hundred paces from him three knights clashed in what was clearly a two against one battle, and from the look of the armor it was obvious the outnumbered party was one of his knights. He began to quickly head toward the battle to give his aid but after only ten paces or so he felt his legs buckle and it was all he could do to make it a few more steps to a large, knee-high gray stone he could throw his weight against to keep himself from falling.
                The cost of the golden dream that was Camelot was indeed weighing heavily on him this day.
                Although he hadn’t moved much closer to the fight, the few steps did give him a better view, and he could now make out the armor design and plumage of his embattled knight. It was Galahad. Arthur sighed again, this time in relief; Galahad, he knew, needed no assistance. He watched as one of the shining jewels of the Round Table fought his two opponents, his footwork and balance so sure and flawless that he almost danced between his opponents as he dodged and parried their attacks, patiently waiting, Arthur knew, for the perfect opening to allow him to switch from defense to offense. He was familiar with Galahad’s technique and strategies; he had tried to best his knight many times in past training sessions to no avail. In truth, though Galahad was by far the youngest of the Knights of the Round Table, it had been years since anyone had been able to say they were his equal with a blade, let alone his better. The only one who could come close was Lancelot…
                “He really is poetry in motion,” a voice commented suddenly from Arthur’s left.
Tired and wounded though he was, the king’s left hand dropped to the hilt of his blade and drew as he turned and took a step back all in one continuous blur of motion. His instincts continued to guide him, his sword lifted up into a guard position as his feet settled him into a defensive stance. It was only once he was ready to ward off an attack that Arthur realized the voice belonged to a man who had simultaneously taken a step back and was holding his hands in the air, a man whose face he well recognized. “Kay,” Arthur breathed, his face visibly relaxing as he once again sheathed his sword. “This is really not a good time and place to sneak up on someone!”
“Apologies, my liege,” Sir Kay Andyr said, smiling innocently. “I thought the King of Camelot could hear a fly take a shit from a mile away.” His smile faded, however, as he saw Arthur once again sag against the stone. He hurriedly stepped to the king’s side. “Are you alright, brother? Are you hurt?” he asked, placing his hand under Arthur’s elbow to help support him. “I knew I was away from your side for too long.”
“Damn it, Kay, I’m not a child,” Arthur snapped. “I can survive just fine on my own for a few minutes without you hovering around me.” He looked at the other knight, saw the streaks of blood covering his armor, and knew that the fighting Kay was involved in was doubtlessly ferocious as he tried to make his way to Arthur’s side; as his bodyguard and brother, that was his place. Arthur knew it, and regretted his words. “I’m unhurt,” he continued evenly before Kay could respond, gently pulling his arm away from his foster brother’s hand as he rested his weight more fully on the stone. “Which is a good sight’s difference from alright. And yes, he is certainly a sight to see,” he added to forestall any further questions from Kay, directing his eyes back towards Galahad. He could feel the other man’s eyes on him, but Kay said nothing, settling in quietly next to Arthur as they watched the duel unfold.
Galahad effortlessly ducked under a slash from one of his opponents that was meant to cleave his head from his shoulders, dropped down to one knee, rammed the hilt of his blade into the unprotected back of his other opponent’s knee, making him drop to his knee as well, where Galahad promptly backhanded him across the face with his gauntlet so hard it knocked the other man’s helmet off. Galahad’s hand then shot back in the other direction, landing a slap across his face that knocked him down; then Galahad sprang across his now prone body to evade a downward slash from the first, still standing opponent, before rising back to his feet and turning to face the man once more from a ready position. He didn’t attack, just waited.
Arthur tilted his head curiously as he watched, and heard a questioning grunt issue from Sir Kay. Why hadn’t Galahad pressed an attack? For that matter, why was the fight still going on? Arthur wasn’t nearly as good as Galahad was in a swordfight of this kind, but he had seen multiple openings now where Galahad could have done away with both men, and was sure Galahad would have seen even more openings. But he had ignored them all. Why?
He heard more sounds around him, armor-clad footsteps, but this time he didn’t jump into action; ostensibly the difference was that this time Kay was there, but the truth was that Arthur feared if he moved off the stone again he might fall. When he didn’t hear Kay reacting with alarm, he looked around and saw that the rest of his knights were gathering around, joining Galahad’s audience, as were the remaining soldiers and squires who fought for and supported them. A further look around showed Arthur that the battlefield was calm. Covered in fallen bodies and slick with blood and guts, yes, but calm. The fighting, save for Galahad and how foes, was over.
The Knights of the Round Table had won.
“What’s the lad doing, do you suppose, my lord?” asked a big bear of man as he rested his giant axe on the ground before him. The axe, Arthur noted, which started the battle a polished silver, was fully coated in deep crimson.
“I’ve been wondering that myself, Tor,” Arthur answered. As they watched, the knight that Galahad had dropped to the ground with his strike to his knee regained his feet in a sudden surge, cutting between Galahad and his second opponent and catching the knight of Camelot with an uppercut strike that sent Galahad’s helmet flying off. The knights around Arthur gasped in surprise and quite a few stepped forward, intending to go help their comrade in arms only to be restrained by their fellow knights. This was Galahad’s fight, they knew, and he wouldn’t want their assistance. And a few of them, Arthur was sure, had noticed as he had that Galahad had leaned into that punch, accepting it when he could have easily leaned away instead. He wanted his helmet to come off.
What was he up to?
Not realizing he had wondered that aloud, he was surprised when Sir Safir, standing a few paces to his right, replied, “I know.” When Arthur looked at him questioningly, Safir merely smiled and nodded back towards the action.
Arthur looked back at Galahad and saw the younger knight glance at him with a smile across his face similar to the one on Safir’s. Galahad then nodded slightly to his king, turned back to his opponents, and attacked.
The change was startling. If Galahad had been, as Kay noted, poetry in motion on the defensive, then on the offensive he was an art perfected to its ideal. He stepped between his two opponents, slashing his sword back and forth, drawing their blades into short, defensive strokes, turning back and forth between them too rapidly for them to go on the attack again. He hit the enemy on his left, the one still wearing his helmet,  a particularly vicious blow that staggered him back a step, letting Galahad square solidly against the opponent on his right. He lifted his sword and swung it down in a vicious overhead chop, not directed at his opponent but at his opponent’s sword, smashing into it so hard it jolted from the overpowered knight’s hand. Galahad followed through on his stroke, burying his blade into the earth solidly so he could lift up on it and kick his legs out behind him to catch the opponent he had staggered as he rushed back in against him solidly in the chest, again knocking that man back a few steps, this time solidly down onto his back. Galahad set his feet solidly under him again at the same moment the knight in front of him reached for his fallen sword; Galahad met his descending arm with a swift upward stroke of his sword that started with him yanking it out of the earth and ended with the enemy knight’s forearm laying on the ground, separated from the knight at the elbow.
The knight screamed in shock as he looked at the blood fountaining from the stump where his forearm used to be, the shock slowly turning into agony until the scream was cut short by a thrust from Galahad up into the knight’s unprotected neck.
Arthur’s gathered knights cheered as Galahad vanquished one of his foes, and then laughed as the other knight regained his feet and ran at Galahad with a primal scream very unbecoming for a knight, his sword extended like a lance that he could use to impale Arthur’s knight. The scream gave Galahad ample warning and he easily sidestepped the charge, forcing the knight to collide with the body of his now deceased comrade, knocking it to the ground.
The reaction of his men to Galahad’s success was what led Arthur to realize what Safir in his wisdom had realized earlier, and he knew why Galahad had been toying with his opponents. He was putting on a show for the men, and Arthur knew why. “Finish it, Galahad,” he called wearily.
Hearing his king’s command, Galahad wasted no more time. He reached out from behind his opponent and wrenched the helmet from the man’s head, pushing him a step further away as he did so. As the man recovered and spun to face him, Galahad spun into a spin of his own, bringing his sword around horizontally so that his spin finished with him facing the unprepared knight as his sword removed his head from his body.
The other knights and their forces applauded Galahad’s display of prowess heartily as he turned to face them. Arthur caught Galahad’s eye with a knowing look and a small nod of gratitude, which the knight returned with a slight bow. Galahad had just done Arthur a great service by prolonging his fight until the rest of the battle was over and the men were assembled. He had reminded them that they were the superior fighting force; that they fought with skill and honor and supported each other, and that they did not lose.
They were the army of Camelot.
They were the Knights of the Round Table. They  were now, and ever would be, victorious.
His bows taken, Galahad began to walk back to his comrades-in-arms. He had taken but a few steps when the ground began to rumble so fiercely that he almost lost his balance completely. He dropped to one knee, reaching his hands to the ground to keep himself stable.
Arthur wasn’t quite as lucky. The rumbling caused the large stone he had been resting on to tip over, and between being exhausted and being caught by surprise he almost tipped over with it. If not for the quick hands of Kay and Tor, who each grabbed one of his arms to steady him, he’d have fallen backward into a very unkingly position.
“What the hell is going on?” Kay growled as Arthur nodded his thanks to them both. The shaking continued, the sound of it growing louder, and it soon became clear that whatever was causing it was in the deep forest off just a short distance to the Camelot assemblage’s right.
And whatever was causing it was clearly growing closer.
Arthur spared an eye towards Galahad and saw him facing the forest, whose trees were now visibly shaking, eyes narrowed. “To arms, men,” the king called, making sure Galahad could hear him. And hoping his prized knight would understand what he wanted. To his relief, Galahad nodded towards him almost imperceptibly.
“Giants!” came a cry from Sir Aglovale, the smallest of Arthur’s knights, who had just regained his feet after being held aloft by his brother Tor so he’d have a better angle in hopes of seeing what was happening. “I can see them moving through the trees. They’re…”
Whatever he was about to say was drowned out by a sudden, deafening roar as a group of easily two score giants broke through the last of the tree cover and screamed battle cries. Each giant was easily twice the height of a man… save Tor, who was already a good head and a half taller than the average man… and each was heavily armed; giant clubs obviously made from great trees, in some cases just uprooted whole, were the favorite, but there were some armed with great-axes and swords that looked like daggers in their massive hands.
“Bloody piss, shit, and rot,” Kay swore next to Arthur, gripping his drawn sword anxiously in his hands. “The bloody bastard kept giants in reserve as a surprise.” He then looked askance at Arthur, realizing that perhaps he might have misspoken. 
Tor smacked the edge of his axe against his open palm. “How kind of him,” he said, sparing Arthur the need to respond to Kay.
For his part, the king looked over at Galahad and nodded. Galahad, the man who had just bested two foes without letting a touch land in return save one he meant to land; Galahad, who was still a ways separated from the rest of the knights and thus had no back up, drew his sword again and charged at the giants. If that didn’t galvanize the tired warriors of Camelot, Arthur didn’t know what would.
Except maybe one thing.
He gripped the hilt of his sword in his left hand and quickly drew the blade. The sound it made leaving the scabbard rang out across the battlefield.
Arthur Pendragon, King of Camelot, had drawn Excalibur.
He raised it above his head and, with all the breath and strength he could muster, bellowed, “For Camelot!” and then charged towards the oncoming horde of giants.
As one, the Knights of the Round Table echoed his battle cry and followed their king into battle.
And under his breath, so softly that not another soul could hear, Arthur swore viciously, “Gods-be-damned wizard!”



Chapter One


                It did all start with a wizard, but if you asked him he’d probably take issue with the accusation of being “gods-be-damned.”
                In his more honest days, though, he’d doubtlessly agree.
                Merlin Ambrosius was his name, and had been for a very long time. By the time he was as damned as Arthur Pendragon constantly accused him of being, he had long since dropped the Ambrosius, preferring to go about simply as Merlin, or, when the need struck him, one of a few other select aliases.